last week had been a real great week for me.

wonderfully wonderful max brenner treat from ms tan. :D cant express how happy i was la! omg i love the suckao thingy. we both acted like little kids and sucking our chocolate that we melted on our own! and guess what, bananas have a serious thing against me. they keep breaking whenever i want to eat them. grrrr. well, we bonded quite a bit. and i got another treat to earn. yay! below 10 and something great's coming up! haha.

uneventful and boring. mostly planning for the big day on friday.

cleared the mama store with yazzie and gang on monday. whoo! yazzie learnt something and yea, i agree that it's so much easier to get things done when people actually take initiative and follow instructions properly. thanks guys! you've been great! anw. the store now finally loooks like a store man. not some rubbish store room. fyi, the pullovers are near the computer. there's this hole in front, just bend over and get it. the bears are at the back. the hp cleaners are on top of the towels, at the front near the radio there. yeah and the book marks are near the bears at the back in this photocopying paper box. yups. i feel so accomplised. somehow or another, i cant feel the commitment i had for i&e this year as compared to last yr. has the hype died down? i would rather it not man. but yea, i still love i&e all the same. it's gonna be about 4 more meetings (acc to pokpok's blog) and we're just gonna disappear into thin air. how sad. but nvm im looking forward to the step down party, comm bonding at pok's house and the may babies bday bash! haha. gonna be real interesting.

the big big day. ms goh's 25+5 th bday. hahaha. all the planning and all paid off man. no errors nothing. well, the only thing that was kinddaf screwd was maybe the "oooops. we forgot to buy plates/serverttes" part. haha. besides that all was great and unexpected things even popped up man. early in the morning, waited for thini in the foyer as usual, den out of no where, ms goh's car came. and i had the stupid cake with me. luckily joyce and felcia and weiling and gang came and screamed "happy bday ms goh!" and me and thini were like oh shit oh shit. so had to run all the way up to find mdm lim and dump her the cake. after mss run and all had to unscrew the mirror with lizard and joyce early in the morning. so that before emaths just unscrew the last screw left and the whole mirror would just come off. haha so we shifted the mirror to class and put at the back. damn interesting lah! and then, joanne and thini faked sick. hahah super hilarious. i couldnt control my laughter in class alrdy. and the bell rang. we were like halfway through weiling's show and tell can. and she was like errr "i got nothing else to say" haha and we all stood up and thanked ms goh. and the party started! me, eddy, felcia, felsa blindfolded ms goh and threw the shirt on her. front says "ms goh, girl of our dreams" and back says "love, joyluckclass 4g2'o7" i fell in love with that sweet lill thing. so i grabbed her hand and pushed it through the hole. i was totally violent can. hahaha but who cares! and after that the cake with the unblowable candles came. well, she had a shock. ate cake and all and the best part, the calling to ms goh's boyfriend part. HAHA. seriously, she too found it weird that we knew she like mango cake and what time she arrive at sch and all. so eddy told the truth. but not the how we found his no part. so yea, called him through loudspeaker. haha and it blasted through the mic. and everyone in class heard. so cool lah. and ms goh's boyfriend was in a meeting summore. (: eh weilng send me the recorded sound clip eh! haha.

so admit it man. 4g2 really grew more bonded through out this whole event that we planned together. very proud of us all. part 2 coming up tmr! the "know sharon goh" book. (: next task on hand: cny. and we still have to find out when's mdm lim's bday man. so here's to the "sexiest chiobu in the world" - happy birthday!

it's no wonder i love 4g2. <3>









it's been a while since i last saw you online. how's it going on your side? if i need someone to talk to, would u be there for me? i guess chances are, not that much i guess. i really wish to keep in touch, but it seems so impossible right now. we both live seperate lives, that's a fact for sure. i really need to talk. would u be there to listen? am i still part of your world? how about the pact we made? it's all a unfinished puzzle to me.

im feeling rather weird right now. it seem that i have a lot of hw left for me to do but i just dont feel like doing it. super not on task today. just wanna lie down listen to music and read my book. haha. it's gonna be another tough week ahead tmr. die. next week, all the tests will come. and once im being tested on sec3 topics, im gonna be so screwed. worse still, remedial with flower power tmr. i know she has something against me. well, cant help it that she was superly mean to me and made me cry during the make up lesson in december. and it's just gonna be too bad for her if i make her life difficult. hahaha. im such a mean kid. talking bout which, i think im quite ego too. right limin? xD okay must change must change. gahh.



i just simply love wasting my time away on such a slow sunday night.
hello world, how's it been?
week 4 starts tomorrow. : im in a very blah mood. so yeah. (:

interview tmr. hope it'd turn out good. open your eyes people. do not accept those with shit attitude or those who are here for the sake for the points. gahh. enterprise's always the pride and joy i look forward to each week. was really shocked last friday when that abrupt phonecall came. well, im glad that i could hear you out. it's the first ever time that i've seen you so human. this sense of hopelessness, this need to confide in someone, wondering if the decision made was a right one. what if peoeple hated you and all. i can say that i was shocked that i was the one u chose to share with. i'm real glad that i could be there for you, trying my best to make u happier than u were. no matter what happens, i'd be here. loves.


homework chionging today. nothing much basically. what a boring life. was just very glad that i went for rciy last fri. liked it for some reason. yeah. im thinking of ________ just like _____ and go ____. it's a really hard decision to make. gah. and if i really ____ where can i go? lots of options open for me. but still it's a fog out there (cross-reference JLC!) haha. went to make the shirt on friday. turned out to be a flop. gosh. the shop owner didnt have fuschia ): not one shop, 2 shops. gahhhhhhh. so it's either we go to U2 and get a fuschia shirt, or make do with a white one.

i <3 JOYLUCKCLASS 4G2. well sudden urge. but i really hope that we get bonded real soon. bonded. and the letter writing thing on friday, i think it was unnecessary. maybe she should learn to grow up. maybe we shouldnt be so mean. but oh well. it's always a give and take situation. we give her more love, she grow up and be a normal kid. and no one will be accused of outcasting her or whatever sort. gahh. why cant we study and become chaomuggers in peace? tsk.



There is a candle in every soul.
Some brightly burning some dark and cold
There is a spirit, who brings a fire
Ignites a candle, and makes his own.

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn,
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, go light your world.
Take your candle; go light your world been thinking a lot recently. esp today and ytd. i guess i had over reacted. sorry! i really mean it. it's hard to know that out of a sudden things had taken a turn for the worse, well, today had been a lill better but still as bad as before? i hope it iznt. i dont think this friendship is short-lived. neither do i want it to be that way. i know it was insensitive of me to blog about this without telling you bout it first. im sorry. actually, honestly, up till now, i have no clue what had happened that led us till this point. it's all too sudden. maybe it was just because of the rough rough week before. maybe it was coz we got too agitated and irritated by each other's bad emo moods. or maybe bcoz it's that we'd changed. but i dont want that to happen and i dont wish for it to happen. afterall, this whole year i've spent with you had been one of the sweetest i could ever remember. the same thing we had a passion for and all the weird subjects we talk about. it's gonna be real hard for me if we just stop talking now. i bet it would for you too. why dont we start again? im sorry. i really am. and would someone please enlighten me on what happened that led us all the way till this bad bad curve? it's all too sudden.

emokid D:
REAL emokid D:

i hate to see this thing short-lived. wont we all give each other a chance and start on a fresh sheet? no matter what, i'll still respect you and love u all the same. (: thanks for always being there. even when i scream at you for utterly no reason. (: love ya! i really do. the running 25 rounds in the dark, the bubbles, the conning treats, the bitching and all. it's too hard to forget. so wont you join back my pal club again? my 3rd post today. well, it indicates that im real emo. anyway, dee cheered my up just now. thanks a lot pal. (: i love you to bits and bits. (: dee's the best act-bimbo partner and bestie at crescent i've ever had. thanks for making me realise that life's still worth living no matter what happens.

well, here's the song. it gotta do with o'levels. heh so cute can!

I believe I can fly (out into space)
I believe I can touch the sky (while daydreaming in class)
I think about it every night and day (think of you stupid o's)
Spread my wings and fly away (away from all remedials)
I believe I can soar (and get all the a1s)
I see me running through that open door (out of school after the last paper)
I believe I can fly (fly straight to jc by DSA)
I believe I can fly (back to where i was still a kid) (no more o's yay!)

SO CUTE. well, got hidden meaning in song i didnt realise. haha it was quite funny that she sang it over the phone. esp since we all dont sound nice singing over the phone. i laughed like nobody's business. thanks dee! (: it's hard to start loving again.
but i'll try.


Simple Plan - Shut Up

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know that you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
(Don't tell me who I should be)
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say is gonna bring me down,
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down,
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me
shut up, shut up SHUT UP! it's such a superficial world.
everyone does some thing or another for the sake of pleasing someone. if someone does it better than you, you get jealous and try to put the other person down, and get back on track to pleasing that one person. well, what can i do? you're the one who's in charge anyway. im afterall, only a spare tire in your eyes. yes only when im needed will i be sought for. when i need help, who would come for me? just like the bleach song goes "nobody knows who i really am. i've never felt this empty before. and if i ever need someone to come along, who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?"

sigh it's been a rough rough week. broke down like 1001 times. sucks. i was so glad that friday is finally over. well, thought that cca open house on friday was gonna be real cool and all but im totally disappointed. fine. sometimes you just dont know how tough it is being out there. everyone's surrounding you, waiting for instructions. you have a whole list of 20 things to be done in that crucial point of time. well, giving instuctions aint that easy, too harsh and you get critisised. too soft and people say you arent fit to be up there giving instructions. but if you dont give instuctions, no one gets things done. was especially pissed that it was raining on friday and that those who have assigned duty and are supposed to turn up are not in sight but those who arent supposed to be there, are there and crowding up the whole place. who says that the more the merrier? well, it aint easy controlling a crowd of lets say 20 people when you're the only one with the whole list of tasks at hand. after telling people to shift tables and all, i finally got a lill break. and what did i do duing that break? wear uno cards and walk all around. oh great. in total i've done a total of all the 3 shifts, and im not regretting any bit of it. i&e's my love and it will always be. no matter what happens or how anyone trys to put me down. well, i'm just going for it. well, it's a totally different matter that im going for. it's gonna be for the best interest of the club, not for the credit. i know of so many people in there, doing things just to get the credit. i dont think that should be the way it should be. im just glad that at least yazzie and manda agrees with me. everytime a idea pops up and get approved, we're bound to hear this "eh! my idea leh!". well, wont any of you get so sick of hearing this? it's a dog eat dog world out there. and i guess it's the battle of the fittest eh. but those who dont agree, why iznt anyone saying anything? well, i guess it all lies down to one reason - we've been scarred before. just to name you my personal experience, i've been scarred recently. i thought mr cc chua said that "ideas build up" and i'd always believed in that. well "no ideas are silly" and in that case, why are my ideas classified as silly? let me give you an example. perhaps one person says "hey! lets put posters all around the sch" well, this is the typical conventional idea. someone says "nono. too common. silly." yeah fine. so we're skipping the base. and the next person says "maybe we can put huge posters in the canteen and foyer so that it will grab attention" and so it's huge posters. and "nono its too silly. too much cost". and the next person goes "how bout we put the poster on the canteen table like a table clothe?" so this is the unconventional idea and all, but not everyone agrees with it. and so what, this is not a silly idea? how ironical this sounds. i always believed that ideas gotta be built up. if we reject even the basic, how do we expect good ones? brainstorming = no ideas get rejected. yeah. it's such a cruel world.

i'd finally found out the real reason behind manda's drastic change of attitude. this sorta "heck care" attitide has a real sad story behind it. im sure it had happened to many people as well. it's this similar type of story and i know of 2 people in i&e who are experiencing this emotional blockage. well, i guess im gonna be the 3rd one. got really pissed off at the fact that on friday after i've been walking around and all for 2 whole hours, getting things set up and stuff, someone happened to come to me and said some real mean words and what totally irritated me was that *roll eyes*. well, if you actually know what's going on and all, and going through it, it really isnt as easy as it seems. clearing up was bad too. everyone just crowd round and talking to their friends. it was so hard trying to get ppl to pack up. well, didnt council always talk bout "being firm?" well, not telling ppl to do things, i get scolded. getting people to do things, i get scolded too. what more do u want? i believe we all have a common goal of wanting i&e to do well. even if you claim credit and all, im fine with that. what's really pissing me off is that you too join in the crowd and talk. dont we all believe that "leadership is action, not position"? if so why are you acting this way?

fine . i know it real hard for me to change a person from well, conventional to wacky and accepting and well, doing things for self to doign things for club. if i want to change someone first, wont it be easier to change myself? but no matter what, im not gonna change myself just to please you and the world. myself = myself. what for put up a show every week just to let the particular someone see? dont you get so sick of it? im sick of all these leadership crap and all when i dont see it taking place. common, please practise what you preech. if not, it's just gonna be meaningless that way. i know loads of ppl dont see where im getting here but nahh it's alright as long as someone understands, im fine with it. this, is one of the most major discovery i've ever made in my life. i saw the impact of how words can hurt, experienced it, got injured and i've learnt never to do such a thing in my whole life. i promise. though it might be small, no one would really know what a huge impact it would make. im trying to make myself forgive. i'm trying to forget. and im really learning in the process. i promise not to be such a leader from now on. bad example to learn from, and i'll never learn from it.


peace has come.
i love yazzzie and manda loads. (: yes i really do.

from now on, i shall try my utmost best and love i&e more for the last 2 months. it's gonna be hard to leave. but there's no such thing as a feast that never ends huh? all things come to an end. well, i'm starting to accept the truth. and yes, friendship do come and go. i've promised myself not to let anything i do regret my decision.



summary of the week:
goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. you had been the one. you HAD been the one for me.
i think eyecandy issues are so much easier to handle. i miss my ec LOADS. you've been wonderful. thanks a million my dear. at least i know that if anything screws up in my life, you would never give up on me. (: im stressed. there's a total of 20 things i have to do for enterprise open house cum games trial tmr. gosh. no joke man. from laminating cards to collecting mascot material to overseeing that everything runs well to allocating colour combi to the girls, i seriously think im gonna die. gahh. but oh well "it's kind of fun to do the impossible" eh? quote by walt disney. haha. trying out new things is cool. no harm trying anyway. so why is it that all the leaders around i see are all going by the conventional way? a lill bit more wacky ideas wont hurt my dears. if we dont move on, we never get anywhere. risk it. haha okay so i got a sudden urge to blog twice in a day. haha.
just feel that sec4 life is gonna be fun, well if i make it fun that is. apart from the teachers (esp the baldy which i dont really like), the un-understandable lessons, the tons of hw, the mock tests every tuesday, the weekly chinese test, the test week which starts from tmr, council and all, i guess if i put my heart into the things i do and stop thinking bout nonsensical things which only make myself sad, well, den i guess i'll probably have quite a bit of fun mugging and studying and sitting for tests after tests and mugging and studying and.. yeah i think u get the idea.

im really really starting to miss sec3 life lah. just like what's yx said in her blog, you will only regret things after it's over. how true this sounds man. i really really want to go back to sec3 but it's quite impossible. and given the chance, i'll definitely treasure the sec3 days i had more. well, sec3 isnt without responsibilities and all, but that's what make it fun. all the competition and stuff, makes life so much more thrilling (okay im sick i know).

i guess this yr is gonna be a real short year. time will fly and i wont know what i spent most of my time doing besides studying and doing hw and mugging for tests. i should stop wasting my brain juice on unnecessary stuff and thinking long winded tales making myself paranoid and over sensative for nothing. (closer friends would know what im talking about) well, so what if it's obvious now and all? maybe during this period of suspicion as long as i stop what im doing now who knows, hopefully it wont be proven and no one will realise. fingers crossed. i should start focusing on the things that i should do the more important ones at least.

just the thought of enterprise makes me happy. (: i&e's 5th anniversary this yr. hopefully we'll make it a BLAST. not to mention we gotta do lanyards, name cards, print magazine and do brand new club tee. i <3 enteprise.

and i need to talk to mrs lau, mrs low and ms lin real bad. :( kinddaf miss their lessons and all. seriously they've been the best. omg. ow's real slow and baldy's real ego. reminds me of the male chavunistic pig. haha. i love my sec3 teachers nevertheless. (: they'd all been so sweet and nice and one thing for sure: they NEVER said "o'levels" like 3456765432 times each day.

caught up with ms lau that day. i was a happy kid. haha. omg now we have chia for chem and all, i can say i do miss ljw's teaching methods. ): and what's with the 2 a'lvl grads? i want mrs low back bad. ): haha at first i thought that she hated me and all cuz she picked on me like 6 times in 10 minutes. but i realise that ever since she stopped picking on me, i lost concentration and i fail physics. yes yes. and not to mention that the real meanie mdm tan or smth who thinks she's so smart and all totally freaked me out and made me cry. thanks ah. now i love mrs low more. HAH too bad for you old ____. i wont hate physics because of you. i just dislike it. HAH.

and i've promised myself not to let baldy un-motivate me to do well for amaths cuz it's been a real tough journey all these while since i've failed amaths for the whole of last year. haha. got suddenly motivated my ms lin can. and i was like only 2 marks more to passing for finals. kindda disappointed but i shall work harder this year. (: yes i must. seriously, mrs lau's the best ss and history teacher. i miss her weird way of pronounciation so much. remember that me and the twins used to laugh at her and go "wadewer" with the purpose w in between. but i guess ow's really killing me and my passion for history. hey! i thought mrs lau said that she's gonna teach me mao zhe dong, who is apparently my "boyfriend" (right cynthia?) im determined not to let this year's teachers kill my passion and love for humans, language and amaths. haha better start treasuring all the days i have man. and before i know it, it's gonna be the last day of my crescent year. boohoo. ):


for you. i cant help it. (:

Simple Plan - Addicted

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still addic-
I'm addicted to you

I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get to you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to treat you good in every way

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting
Till the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker wow. it had been a real hectic first week of my last sch year at crescent man. haha. stayed back every single day and well, i kinddaf enjoyed it. (: so thursday had SOF comm mtg. my group: felsa, felcia, hani, joyce. hahaha sorry pokpok for dumping you. haha anw we had so much fun talking bout dongdong stuff which is totally unrelated to the SOF thingy and yes yes, i give all the wacky ideas like the zooom zooom car and beep beep wheelchair. so spastic la! but well, quite glad that we eventually finished the word doc and handed in like the first group. hahaha. anw. after that chionged to enterprise in which we had to inpromptuly create this duty list for the open house. havoc man. meeting ended at like 4.30 but we left at 6. haha oh well. and yes la i had quite a lot of fun consoling eddy that day. hey pokpok no 2! hope u like the bubble crayon! (:

so my last orientation week had been quite fun afterall. hehe. friday. my last dedication ceremony. seriously it kindda sucked that i sat like the 3rd person from the front and well i know a lot of teachers were staring cuz i was happily tickling eddy who was in front of me during the long long long speech. i bet i would have fell asleep if my fingers didnt move lah! anw. it was my first and last time pinning on the badge for the sec1s. haha suddenly hit me that i wasnt gonna do that ever again. so yeah. and it sucked cuz it hit me that i aint gonna be here for anymore dedication ceremonies. ): anw. after that we had this council mtg thingy and guess what. im put on permernant duty till i step down. but nvm cuz cheeshan and FELEEECIA! will accompany me and stand at the boring lill staircase. GAH. sucks sucks. went out with excos to get gift for the sch history thingy. quite fun i would say. 1st time wearing tie out of sch summore. and i wasnt allowed to take it out. GAHH. so we 5 look like toooties walked around at tiong trying to find the gift for the sec1s. so super hilarious lah! and we ate macs for lunch and please dont ever try the prosperity burger unless u like super super spicy black pepper sauce. hehe. i had to buy a fish o fillet in the end. so funny.

so my last campfire as a crescentian was awesome. we had SOOOO much fun as council. haha. really gonna miss campfires. oh well. so we went totally siao, bombing around and all, jumping up and down, going real high. hahaha. and leemin came back! had a real cool long talk with her. really really enjoyed well, the company i would say. s1 used back the same old cheers that we passed on from my generation! yay! hahaha although they didnt win but i would say that they did a preety good job. just a little tooo soft. me bernette and jane kuan were screaming the cheers at the back summore. real cool. hopefully the cheers will pass on further and further. and i cant believe that g1 actually won the cheer competition for 4 whole years straight. pifff. my year they got 1st, when i was sec2 they were 1st, last yr they were 1st, and they're even 1st this year. omg. i cant believe such a thing is happening. hahaha real glad that the campfire ended earlier than expected cuz when the mcs said "good night" it started to rain. timing was real good. glad that everything went so smoothly and all. i <3 crescent campfire. so council played in the rain. hahaha had so much fun lah! we skipped around like idiots. hahaha. i'll really really miss orientation. maybe we can all come back again nxt yr eh? (:

and i learnt 2 things new that day! dididididididi a baby shark! dididididididi a granny shark! hahah so cute! and yingmin and felsa taught me this psst psst chi chi mu ku AH! mu ku AH! mu ku AH! psst psst chi chi mu ku AH! mu ku mu ku mu ku AH! haha it's supposed to be made with your mouth and have this rhythm thingy. but i guess the hanyupinyin version will do eh?

i <3 crescent! really cant bear to leave at all this yr. haha. hope enterprise comm mtg on monday wuld be a BLAST. and we'd leave a lasting legacy this year. afterall, it's our 5th anniversary! woooohoo! (: cant wait for the week ahead. hopefully it shall be eggggciting. (: sec4 life is so much more eggciting doing the things i love doing. (: crap crap. i just realised that today was my last 1st day of school at crescent. and having a quite sucky day doesnt seem to make it better. well 1st to start off i have to wake up at like freakin early at like 5am to reach school to do some council duty in which i was practically an extra just standing behind the sec 1 level ALONE. fine. den i went to class and all and my form, well let's say it's not a really nice person. and my co-form's ms goh! yay! (: she's teaching us english and lit. haha we see her like the most lah! anw. so my form's teaching me express chinese. omg my jaw drop can when i heard that cuz i would never ever expect her to give up her higher chinese class to teach express chinese. wow the chinese rep (me most prob) is gonna have a tough time man. and to think i thought today was tough enough.

english lesson. 1st thing we did: compo. crap. wow what a nice way to start off the year. was totally like brain dead today and yah lah, i couldnt finish on time. sucks. oh well, class interection in the morning was quite okay cuz i still love my class being the oh-so-havoc class. hahaha. im glad we haven really turned into nerds yet afterall. joanne was super cute lah! she wrote on the board: I AM YOUR FORM TEACHER. I AM ms/mrs/mdm/mr _____________ & __________. and i cant believe my form and co-form actually filled in the blanks! gosh super funny.

my timetable ends at 1.45 everyday except wed at 2.45. quite happy with that though, just quite pissed off that we get a total new amaths teachr which is a guy and if he cant teach or kills my motivation to do amths, den im gonna die. so die for my o's. GAHH. and i miss mrs lau a lot. haha history's ow. omg. pls remind me to tell mrs lau tt i miss her and tt she's the bestest ever. mrs low's like my phy teacher 2gether with mr tan. so glad tt she's back. well, guess she had good intentions afterall. (:

anw. im in the SOF comm thingy which i just found out and guess what. it was volunteered. who the heck volunteered me man. grr. but oh well it sounds real posh and cool so yeah. was quite shocked that the mtg was tmr so that means that i'd be missing enterprise. ):

after sch today, helped 1c2 with cheers. hahaha waaaanita the clone's quite hopeless! (: muahahaha. so i started screaming to the class to tell them what the campfire cheer competition's bout and why they should win and all. and started to ask them for cheer contributions. and no one answered me. no one. except "what are we getting for prizes?" GOSH. sec1s have changed. =/ and yes guess what. miss lin was sitting at the back laughing at me with every single sentence that i said. wah lao very funny ah. ): im a sad emo kid cuz today turned out to be qute screwd. and im quite worried for c2 cuz they only learnt like 1 cheer and the campfire's on friday. real screwd. wrote a whole list of things to do for cheers on the board, addressed to waaaanita the clone. haha hopefully no one else wuld see it except her. really, it's so maluating lah.

met bertha after sch, she bought like $52.50 worth of stuff from the store. yay! thanks bertha! (: except tt she haven paid yet so yeah. anw. we stayed back a little, i accompanied her to watch the campfire rehersal. saw __ downstairs can and she was like looking up and saw me and quickly like look away. so. thank you bertha for making me so paranoid and going like "eh! she know alrdy ah! how come she like daoing you liddat?" it's so totally crap. spoilt my whole day mood. sigh i guess im like too paranoid and look too deep into things at times. and __'s msn nick iznt her nick anymore. it's the email addess. and according to stephy, i got deleted off __'s list of contacts. sucks. and that spoilt my day even more. like why must this happen to me kinddaf thing. well, stephy said it's for my own good, she has gd intentions and want me to focus on my o's and all. but dont have to like break all forms of contact with me right. :( and tt it iznt realistic even since ___ and ms ____ didnt work out. haha. so yeah maybe i shant think so much into it. but really, i can sense something's amiss. and im clueless what is it. sigh tigh whine. pearlyn's a sad sad kid. >:(

i really hope everything would be alright. and that we are still friends afterall.